Borderline Personality Disorder is a Mental Illness.

“Borderline personality disorder is characterized by a pervasive pattern of instability and hypersensitivity in interpersonal relationships, instability in self-image, extreme mood fluctuations, and impulsivity. Diagnosis is by clinical criteria.  Treatment is with psychotherapy and drugs.”  MerckManual

This mental illness is characterized by loving too strongly, hurting too deeply, and reacting to hurt too intensely.  If you feel too much, you border on psychosis, which is defined as a complete loss of connection to reality.

Maybe you could stop hurting us…

Lol…they warn that “we will blame others for the pain we feel, but we are projecting and often paranoid.”

Which one is Mentally Ill?  Which one crosses the border first?

This scenario has happened to me over and over.  This is the one that happened most recently.  I tried to be vague and anonymous.  This is the same scenario that led Sacred Stone to believe she was a “mean person.”  She said, “Ok, idiots, I guess I’m mean.”

Woman:  Dr. Stone, I’d like your opinion.

Dr. Stone: But of course, I don’t even charge for my time and care.

Dr. Stone offers his opinion, which he openly admits might not be truth.  “Try it and check the results.  Many have found relief from my advice.  That’s all I can say for sure.”

Woman:  That is stupid and you are a bad person.  Wrong and Bad, again.

Dr. Stone: I could be wrong, but I am almost certain I am not bad.

In this scenario, a long time patient left my practice claiming that I betrayed her. My betrayal was upsetting her friend, this woman, and not letting her have her opinion, that I am a bad person.  LOL, I saved her daughters life four years ago.

I already knew she was going to leave, because I could feel it.  I even asked her if everything was ok 4 or 5 times.

If you asked what my guess is, why she left, I think it was because I allowed her to see the depth of my hurt from a marital separation.  We had been through so much together, I thought it would be ok to be real in front of her.  My guess is that she thought I was mentally ill, or borderline.  Lol

I could be wrong, but I won’t take the chance of revealing the depth of hurt I feel to anyone not on the Border team, ever again!

So Who Is Mentally Ill?  Which one?

The person who gives his opinion or the person who finds someone to be a bad person for having a unique perspective.  Perhaps, the person who feels hurt when someone calls him a bad person, or the person who feels hurt because I argued that her opinion is wrong.

The person who insists he is not a bad person or the person who says “Dr. Stone has to be right about everything” when I insist that I am not a bad person.

I teach my kids about FIRST BLOOD.  Remember Rambo, he taught me this.

The first person with a hurtful intention draws first blood.  The one who hits when play wrestling gets too rough.  I think its first blood when someone declares you are a bad person because of your unique perspective.  

Our culture thinks it’s pretty normal to categorize nearly everyone into some bad category.  My category of bad-ness is Borderline Personality Disorder.  Not officially.  I was assessed by a psychologist as no diagnosable mental illness.  But someone who called me bad, labelled my badness BPD.  If you are a Republican, I often hear them declare that Democrats are bad people.

I think that calling anyone anything other than a Gift of God, is the mental illness.

I have a name for that mental illness, that I learned in high school.  We called people that hurt for no reason, “dicks.”  Lol.  Only now I know they hurt, because they were wounded by the rules.

Let me share my unique perspective.  I am certain about what I have seen, heard, and felt.  If you play along, you might learn something very valuable.  I call it a different perspective.  My mental illness allows me to easily step into your shoes, and feel your perspective.

Would you like to step into my shoes?  “I felt like something is not right about me, because I didn’t seem to fit into any of the many categories our hard culture teaches.  I never have complete relief from Pain, because so many of the categories are considered bad, leaving our people wounded and hiding, or hurting back.  White man is supposedly the “best category,” but it feels horrifying.  Hard and hurtful!”

I even tried hurting, because the white men in charge seemed to be the most hurtful.  LOL.

I found a way to be hard and hurtful, softly.  I would see someone being a dick, and walk right up and say, “You’re a dick.”  In our culture, first blood is when you declare war.  He would declare war, and when he saw the intensity of my fury, the war was lost.  “Crap, this guy is nuts.”  Lol.  Over 50 street fights with 2 losses.

I teach my children about first blood, and that in our culture people get to say hurtful things to you, so you must not react.  Just let it go.  Don’t even defend yourself.  I teach them that if someone physically hurts them, hold up their stop sign and say STOP, with all your strength.  And if they don’t stop, come get dad, and I will help convince them to back off.

Don’t worry, it won’t go past revealing the intensity of my fury.  Once they see that I am mentally ill, I’ll give them one more chance, to run away.  

Please vote for who you think is mentally ill!

Is it Dr. Stone, who feels hurt too deeply, or the dicks who hurt for no reason!?

If you are on the border team, or somehow “not right,” I have some medicine that helps with the hurt of a hard culture.  It takes the edge off so you appear less insane.  Lol.  CLICK HERE.

And join my mission.  I think the rules for “normal” need a little softening.